:L

Mañana me punzan el kiste ke tengo en la tiroide... Tengo miedo del dolor, tengo miedo del resultado, no me da miedo morir, pero si me aterra la idea de vivir enferma y peor aun vivir enferma, sola. :/ Pasará lo que tenga que pasar, espero tener buena suerte alguna vez.

So so so Fucked up

Its Time to... I really dont know what to do... i know that this isnt good for me, but in the other hand I wanna believe that anything is posible. The circumtances are so mess up, this is getting...no this is already fuck up, and its not because of me. I became part of a pretty ruined history and I dont know what to do, because some feelings are involve now. I like this boy, i wanna be there as a friend to help him to get out to this situation, But the question is if he wants me there. He´s still involve with if previous fiancee, and the drama there, is bigger than what we have until now... So the question is, Should I keep going on this mess up situation, putting my feelings away just to help this boy, that already take a part of my heart (as a friend of course), or Should I take myself off the picture and let him handle his own troubles... I Really dont know what to do.

The history is pretty fucked up... I hate when people get involve in my life without me wanting to... so thats the case now... in this history there´s to many people participating and I really hate it. Im used to handle my life almost alone... and here there is to many opinions non asked... and in the end even do I dont know exactly what to do... Im doing something... and Im doing it on my own.